An awards-show appearance from Chappell Roan often comes with some surprises (last year’s Video Music Awards saw an unsheathed sword and shooting crossbow), but for her first time at the Grammys, it wasn’t the hennin on her head that caught our attention — it was her buttermilk-yellow notebook.

The nominee for best new artist is always looking for something “bigger and campier,” according to her stylist.

Halsey shared a lengthy message defending Chappell Roan ’s Grammy s speech on more rights for emerging artists. The Pink Pony Club singer, 26, used her speech to highlight some of the glaring issues present within the music industry while accepting the gong for best new artist.